a distraction? no a reminder!

This week a new baby started in my childcare,he is tiny only 2  1/2 months old a little over 7 lbs.He was born with something extra just like Raffi. I thought that by having him to take care of all day I would sort of push Raffi out of my thoughts but nope it just makes me think of him more. Ian looks alot like Raffi's baby picture and it just makes me think of how Raffi was at his age and what he is like now.

here is Raffi
on the left
and baby Ian on the right.
another little guy on Reeces Rainbow that is in my heart he also makes me think of a baby Raffi he is only 6 mo old. his name is Arden here is his link http://reecesrainbow.org/arden-15h
here is his picture
Arddi has been on my heart for a couple months now too I may have to change this blog to love for Raffi and Arddi.
when I hold and love on and even feed and change Ian and Vahnya I just cant help thinking of the babies that don't get that same love it just breaks my heart.

Why can't I look at His picture with out my heart doing spins?

Blessings

Smile (Just want to be with You) Chris Rice sub-titles.wmv

Little red shoes

                                         Little red shoes..
  This morning I was getting Vahnya ready for church. I had him on my bed getting him dressed. I was putting on his  little red shoes. As I was tying them a flash ran across my thoughts of another little boy sitting here with us. He had the same red shoes matching his brothers. I was putting them on him he was looking at me smiling so big. My heart was so happy looking at my two little boys that looked almost like twins. Could this have been Raffi? Oh how my heart aches for sweet Raffi boy.

will he ever be held by his mommy?

  From the time he was born he has been held, held by a nurse,a caregiver,a nannie. and as I'm sure they took good care of him. Nothing is the same as being held by a mommy! feeling her love, a love so strong she would do anything for you. The love of a mommy felt thru her touch, seen in her smile, heard in her voice. Will Raffi ever get the joy of being held by his mommy? Are you his mommy?  go see Raffi here http://reecesrainbow.org/raphael-15h

Raffi got new pictures

Oh look how he has grown he is 2 years and 3 mo now.Someone please go get him so I can stop thinking about him.